God in pain

Some time in february 2010, I was having a miscarriage, and I wrote, I pray you get blessed as you read. Be encouraged however painful it is, The God who promised to be with us in our pain, will Never leave you.Isaiah 43:1-5 I did'nt have to wait till the end of next week, to know what Your answer is to my prayers. When the pain started on the eve of the 9th of Feb 2010 and I began to bleed (your guess is as good as mine) I knew your answer was 'let me have her'. Today for the first time in 4 days I have the grace to write again and I really don't know what to say, but I'll pray. Dear Lord I've spent a whole night in pain and uncertainties , I've spent a whole day afterwards experiencing what I pray never to experience again ever. I've groaned, turned,cried; I've almost cursed. I've died and again risen and the most painful is that my developing baby is no longer in me, and there is nothing I can do about it. Thank you Lord, thank you Lord Because I didn't die in the process Thank you because I couldn't find any reason to stop loving you. Thank You because It brought the families even closer, My hubby became a year older, days later I can now encourage anyone experiencing a miscarriage or one who just experienced it. Thank You because I know what a wonderful family I have,and how much I am loved. Thank you because I can cry and hope for another not just one but two and more. Thank You because I can write this. Thank You because I'll miss my baby, but I know you have her. Thank you because You said I should thank You for the day I concieved and the day You received. Thank You, its really hard to, I just want to Thank You. (Written on 13th Feb 2010). As I post this today, I have a son who will be 2 in December. God still keeps His promises. Just hold on He knows what He is doing.

Romancing the Devil. (pt 1)

A few hours ago ,(sometime last year october),I had finished this write up, then someone very dear to me was reading it and mistakenly deleted it. I tried all I could to retrieve it, but it just wasn't working. Then I was sad until my husband said " just relax, you'll write something better". Our God has made it clear several times in the scriptures that He is a jealous God Thus just like a lover will not have the one he loves romancing another either in words or deeds,our God will not have it. Once I was talking with a friend about the way he r

elates with other ladies ,I thought it wasn't proper that he was in the habit of calling other ladies ,at night,with the intention to chat with them.he felt there was nothing wrong with it, since according to him, his fiancee isn't a jealous person. Well here's what I told him              " every man has a nature of jealousy in them, for we are made that way" his fiancée may not act jealous now, probably she doesn't know his level of involvement with other women, but I tell you the truth, she will feel bad when/if she does. It is only natural to feel bad, when you think you are losing your deserved attention from the one you love, to someone else. For this reason: - Little Lara and Moyo will do all in their wisdom to discourage mummy /daddy from remarrying, if they are not re assured that they will still get the love and attention they used to get before the stranger came in. -little Danny will start acting naughty if mummy and daddy doesn't reassure him that he will not lose all the love and attention to his baby sister/brother who just came to the house a few days ago. -Meg will do all in his power to bring his prospering brother down , because He thinks God cares more about his brother than him. -the dotting wife will soon turn a nagging ,depressed,sick woman, if she can't get the reassurance that all those female business associates of her husband are nothing more than he says they are. Vice versa. I've left some space, so you can add you own practical examples. God is a jealous God.-        Our God is so jealous, he will take vengeance on your children's children, if you as much as take his glory and give to another, Ex 20:5; 34:14; Deu 4:24; 5:9; 6: 15; 32:21. Josh 24:19; Nahum 1:2 Sorry He did not stop being jealous after Jesus came, that is why all those who reject Him today, He will reject tomorrow. So if you are in the school of thought that " a God so loving cannot destroy people in hell," then think again. God is feeling jealous now that you have chosen not to believe he exist by rejecting His son Jesus, rather believing that something else or someone else exists to make you who you are. Now that you are romancing the devil, God is jealous: do you ask how? -when you tell half truths when you should be a truthful witness for Him by telling the whole truth and nothing but the truth. -when you make compromises , disobeying God so your friend,acquaintances ,family, colleague .......will love you. -when you play the flirt,knowing that even in your thoughts you commit adultery. -when you look down on others, because of your status,class, money fame.... -when you do good just because you want to be seen and praised. -when you are hypocritical ,raising showy hands instead of holy ones, -when you choose to hide your sins, rather than confess them and repent of them. -when you exaggerate things, to impress or draw attention to yourself. -when you'd rather visit a friend than commune with God ,when He calls for you. -when you disobey Gods daily little instruction When you are involved in things like these and many others that God does not approve of, You are romancing the devil, and I tell you, you serve who you are romancing, and God is jealous. He says if you as much as bow to other gods He will be angry. What more can i say? Watch out for the way you live daily. You may be making God jealous , who knows ? It may be the reason you seem to have lost His attention, He lost yours first. I've never known a better lover to romance. Romancing Jesus.            

IPRAY

when i am praying and trusting,yet nothing is working,
i am taking steps and saying 'now this is it' 
still no break through, i will just pray.


pray when the tears roll down
pray when the heart weighs down
pray when the closest seem far
pray you'll soon see the star.

betrayal can be choking
disappointments like you're soaking
only one should you be bugging
in that embrace is your peace
you should yet pray

pray for He knows your pain
pray for He sees your fears
pray for He'll wash your stain
pray for He'll dry your tears

pray He'll give you joy
pray He is still your friend
pray He sees your toil
pray pray just pray
God will never fail.


friends, sometimes its hard to stay in touch with God in prayers, especially when things seem not to be working out. in such times (like right now) i am letting the grace of God carry me through, even as the holy spirit helps me stay in touch in prayer. Romans 8:26

FIRST

FIRST From my first breath to my first day,my first cry to my first food,my first touch..........my first date, to my first kiss to the first night.......even to my first child. from his first breath to his first cry to his first smile, and his first steps to  his first words, i see growth and most of all i see God. for this reason and many more, i dedicate my first blog to my first love.
First things ,first times ,first places ,first people often seem unimportant, but in the end, our stories are incomplete without them.its my first blog and i have deliberately chosen to make it important.
the bible says in Matthew 6:33 ' but seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness,and all these things will be given to you as well'
thus my first post is to you my first love

 For all the first times ,first things,
 First places and first people,
 you are worthy of the glory, all of it.
 From now till my last,you are and will remain my first.

there is no other way to make the best out of life, without seeking first the first, putting first the first and taking seriously the first. remember however little, the first is important.
 Zechariah 4:10 'who despises the days of small things?'