God in pain

Some time in february 2010, I was having a miscarriage, and I wrote, I pray you get blessed as you read. Be encouraged however painful it is, The God who promised to be with us in our pain, will Never leave you.Isaiah 43:1-5 I did'nt have to wait till the end of next week, to know what Your answer is to my prayers. When the pain started on the eve of the 9th of Feb 2010 and I began to bleed (your guess is as good as mine) I knew your answer was 'let me have her'. Today for the first time in 4 days I have the grace to write again and I really don't know what to say, but I'll pray. Dear Lord I've spent a whole night in pain and uncertainties , I've spent a whole day afterwards experiencing what I pray never to experience again ever. I've groaned, turned,cried; I've almost cursed. I've died and again risen and the most painful is that my developing baby is no longer in me, and there is nothing I can do about it. Thank you Lord, thank you Lord Because I didn't die in the process Thank you because I couldn't find any reason to stop loving you. Thank You because It brought the families even closer, My hubby became a year older, days later I can now encourage anyone experiencing a miscarriage or one who just experienced it. Thank You because I know what a wonderful family I have,and how much I am loved. Thank you because I can cry and hope for another not just one but two and more. Thank You because I can write this. Thank You because I'll miss my baby, but I know you have her. Thank you because You said I should thank You for the day I concieved and the day You received. Thank You, its really hard to, I just want to Thank You. (Written on 13th Feb 2010). As I post this today, I have a son who will be 2 in December. God still keeps His promises. Just hold on He knows what He is doing.